ooh oh-im not missing you-mmmm
been through just about everything
that i could go through when it comes to relationships
dont know what i was missing or why i aint listen
when i told myself that was it
but here i go hurt again cause
of my curiosity now that its over
what else could it be
besides a cheat
i made a promise
never to settle (why didnt i keep it)
cos i needed the heart break
cryin and cheatin the fooling around
but im not missing u
im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u
u mighta had me open
but i must be goin because
i got lots to do
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u
its a shame in a way
cos i feel that i may not
ever fine the right one for me
did i leave him this year
i didnt find a face oh
will my true love ever be
how could i go on a search again
when i know what the end will be
what good is love when it keeps on hurting me
i made a promise
never to settle (why didnt i keep it)
cos i needed the heart break
cryin and cheatin the fooling around
but im not missing u
im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u
u mighta had me open
but i must be goin because
i got lots to do
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u
no i cant be with u cos
im scared felt like i was falling when u left me
i cant keep going through life
unaware of what im missing
or the person that i could be
loves good when its right
bad when its left
in ur memory all the time anytime
i guess love will be nice for someone
this is life
im not missing u
im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u
u mighta had me open
but i must be goin because
i got lots to do
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u
im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
(knocking at my door)
u mighta had me open (ay oh)
but i must be goin because
(this is the best day of my life)
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u

omg was so looking forward to this day, but food wasnt AS good as expected..but the tour guide..*woohoo* no jkjk lol (stepz back cos of charlotte)

k morning (noIVAN!) bussed to stratty, gjz with viv nadine n janine, then the rest of the girls came, we had to get our tix to the ct ourselves..n there was this MASSIVE line! so pushed in with fionaz sis...n then jono! ahahah ppl bhind got so pd awf but whatever! newayz then all missed a train (this was about 50 girls) ..waited for lyk ages while fiona did the *shopping trolley..do the shopping trolley! n then *the water sprinkler *sighs* if u know what ima tlkn bout! then we made up heaps lyk *do the charlotte, do the michelle* *sighs* ...trained to st JAMMMESSSSS n scared lookalike ronan keating on the train LOLZ and then walked to centrepoint towerrrr...

from there we all got a tourguide and a worksheet to complete, our one was *danny* aw he was cute man!! hence me n fiona answering all the questions...AHAHA went down to the carpark (yes very exciting) and then the kitchen ..omg liquor room haha..*locked*..n danny told us all about his life (cutie) and aw didnt get a foto of himmm!!

then screw the tour...went up to the BUFFET! *check out the fotoz* its the 360* view of the gorjj sydney ct.. and yehs the windows obviously dont move, just the floor of the dining and yeh the food bit stayed. umm yeh had lyk 2 courses (entree inc.) and dessert, well u could go back as many times as u wanted (MICHELLE n her bloddy oysters n later chips n nuggets..we ate all that newayz!) and yehs steph wenttt hommmee! so me fiona mich charlotte went SHOPPING and new kareoke place *omg $4 instead of $5!!**

first went david jones (geez man we didnt know there was a whole area for men and a sep. one for women!) n i wanted a new wallet *winkwinknudgenudge* lyk a pretty branded one! lyk orotonfendichristiandior! they had to be lyk $300..tah geez man! n then went makeup charlotte wanted foundation so she got a makeover (omg sif ur gona get $65 foundation!)

then shopping..mooks! n oh *sugarfix* yumm chockiess!got a bag for lyk $25..bargain..and then k2 was full, so went gr33n8ox.. which is same thing but cheaper!n newer songs...so yeh! so going that one naozzz!! n ahaha sang our lil hearts out...apparantly me n fiona do not need mics! fine! lol michz and charlottes one was louder newayzz! n yehs trained home *raced for the word jumbles in the mx..isnt solair and pepict words now?

wells first day back, (urgh chem 1st pd) but newayz its good to see the group as we NEVER WENT OUT ONCE! but yeah same old same old, breaks chatted and ate fionaz food, and planned what we gona do after school (as we never go home! well me n fiona) ummz yeh so off at 1, went stratty then bw just to get 10% off gjz hahaha n ended up going shopping spending lyk $70? not bad..omg got 4 things yesterday for under $50! (clothing - u can never have too much)

wells i should be doing relO-dpth study..urghh i can see charlottes doing it now!!grxxx im gona chat so she wont do it! lolz (sshhh) umm i just came back from a crewtrainers meeting i so totally forgot was on, so said i was at the *library* n was gona b oh just a bit late! so from home went back to maccas..so cold, n yehs maccas getting so serious nowz! i want my retail II cert.! (omg how ugg is ivan (bus) now ahaha im sucha stalker...fiona so killing u for screaming his name)

newayz got ben to drive me home (as well as tom, laura, lyndah lolz) ahah his car's too low apparantly so we had to keep to the middle!..bizness excursion to centerpoint tomoz..yes! buffettt!!!!!!!!! screw the tour! really excited about that! and yehs thats about it...oh yeh apparantly** haydens leaving to sweden (ahahaa fiona drives em to suicide, i drive em to foreign countries!!)

ahaha i didnt blog about camp - well it took about 9 pages in my diary - alotta crap! lolz no jk it was fun, half the food we bought for it is lyk still here on my desk..ew..

okzz well weddings stress my family out cos terrigals reallllyyy far away..well to them (parents) and they have all these arguments about how we gona get there (sif they wanna spend 3 hrs in a car together lolz) newayz drove there..took about 3 yrz getting ready, mumz annoying me about her makeup or sumthing, wasnt listening really. i wore my browny-floral wrap dress thingo with boots and sis wore white (stupid) and dad wore the only suit he owns lol and mum..*sighs*dw!

went to woy woy first (where ryanz parents live -ryans my cousin, he's funny and super lazy) and stayed there with my baby cousin alek (ryans sisters son..sooo cute) and hes 3 now, n randomly throws tantrums! but hes so cute newayz, took fotoz with him! mostly of him! hehehzz then the wedding was at 130 at terrigal so yeh all went there..

got there it was freeezzing cold, met up with cousins..raiza n jane and omg i had to read a sh*tload agaiinn! umm to the ceremony, the pianoplayer had a shakira voice! the dresses were coral (bridesmaids) and tarita (she's lyk aussie i think?..blonde) was in white strapless beaded..really pretty gown and they all had frangipanis in their up-do`ed hair! so pretty!! so weird not being part of the bridal party...groomsmen had coral ties...no they were not supersexyandfilo which i EXPECTED lol!(omg there was sum other guys..friends>not that sexy,,but FILO one was .BUT TAKEN..*sighs*

newayz i read the first reading,, ahaha so scared! as i got to practice about 5 mins before the wedding! n raiza read prayer of the faithful with all the other ppl from taritas side. umm so yeh really nice ceremony, cord, veil etc..awww alek was the ringboy, so happy he went the right way! and he didnt run or scream or sumthing lol n after that fotoz..n more fotoz, n then to the receptionnn!!

wellz we got there early (after gettting lost) it was at a golf club, overlooking the beach, the bridal party went crowne plaza for fotoz and took ages to come to the function room, so we were playing with the vending machine - ..we had no food! and yehs chatted with cousins etc aunties..*Sighs*

umm then bridal party came, speeches etc cake apparantly her best friend forced her to go talk to him at a train station after formal shopping..TOO CUTE! cos its ryan! we love him! theyre lyk 24ish i tihnk?? newayz first n second courses,, omg i couldnt taste netihng cos of my stupid blocked nose!pis mee offff! but yeh it felt good?ahaha sounds bad. funny bits...dad was pissed and sadly at our table (which is why me n raiza kept sitting at the lil kids table..flower girls n yeh) and dad took the chair cover off and acted lyk a pirate *sighs* scary really, and we all tried to get drunk but nooo there was lyk nothing to get drunk on!

auntys asked same questions..*u gota bf* omg so embarassing they were trying to set s up with random filo guys on the other table..i know..my dream come true right? WRONG omg auntys so ..EMBARASSING no its ok we didnt get up and tlk or nething! umm after all the *formalities* the mC sucked btw.. dancing, so cute! didnt know their wedding song tho>summ sorta rnb artist..newayz it sucked cos the music was gay azzzz, omg this azn guy and the other groomsmen breakdanced..OMG socoolsocool! n yehs went home..ok i have to go shut eddy UP!lol

ok ...hey its bn awhile hey! ahah screw this blog i have a diary! newayz well i lost my computer for a while, and got it back about two weeks ago. I am extremely lazy so i dint wanna blog..but myt aswell, nothing to do.

umm term 2 holz...

• work
• movies
• slept over fionaz house (omg..no way!)
• assignments
• getting drunk and doing bad things
• 17 bruises and a cut on lower back

our group didnt go out once! *glares* hmmz if i blogged earlier i could remember what exactly happened, lyk the fun things worth blogging about? well i can say one thing, getting drunk isnt as fun as it may seem. smirnoff does horrible things to you! im all bruised and cut n whatever! n half my clothes are ruined! and ppl think ima SCL**t..but the weird thing was that i was allowed to go (even tho i lied n said it was samaraz 16-oh n she told her dad it was my 16th..and he took me back to fionaz house)

fionaz house is lyk my second house, im there when i aint at home! n if im craving noodles lol

movies ive seen..

just my luck - at banx with charlotte..movie stopped halfway thru so got a free ticket! and i used this ticket to watch..

pirates of the carribean! (harharhar) with fiona monday night..it was funny ..and cold!..well thats all i can remember? im not sure if i saw nemore?

works bn same old - omg since troyz (aka zack) partay on thurs night i've realised ivan n hayden are not bestfriendsbestfriends! ahah their friend mike! is cuuuttteee! i said it lyk once and evryone thinks i'd lyk die for him...*cc* a bit too quiet for me..bn training zack - so weird. cos we've brawt our social relo..n work relo..together and yeh..weird

well ive gota wedding tomoz!! ryan n terita! at terrigal....i dont remember ryan (cousin) being with ne1 else bsides her...aww too cute!! families bn arguing aobut how we gona get there!

im sorta looking forward to school (andcatchingthebustoseeIVAN) lol jkz. because school takes up ur whole mind and you wont b craving alcohol (jk)

atm chatting to ben (fionaz ben) aabout nothign, and eddy, again about nothign. me n him are lyk scary close now! tried dat *dont talk to me as long as u can game* he lost (for the record) so yeh i got $20! (not sure if heknows about it yet)

charlotte! happy i bloggged? stephz bn sick as well! well im getting tired. dont want panda eyes for tomoz!

welllzzz todayyy went charlottes 16th @ engadine (lmao BOYLE st) wellzz woke up at lyk 7.10 (fat anion) ahah then went fionaz house,, took ages choosing the right outfit! then her mum took us stratty n train-d to central..omg stupid loser security guard wouldnt let us outta station (to eat hungry jackz) so went sum other platform n yehs as usual on the train ahah did make-up (prettyprettyppretty-which was a COMPLETE waste..u'll find out why soon! lolz) n got awf at *sutherland..aussiesaussiesaussies lolz...we looked a bit weird. newayz ate at subway cos SUM1 HADNT LEFT HOME YET..DOYLEC!!

then bummed at sutherland - gloria jeans, pharmacy..sara lee factor outlet! and as charlottes bfz we went n bawt a redredred rose..that lady was a bit of a cow..geez we were gona pay her for the rose!n after called charlotte'z uncle who came n took us to engadine...btw its lyk antarctica there...so cold! me n fiona wearing supre topz..enough said! newwaayyz got to her auntys house ahaha same as the g*** foto saw d sxc bday gurl and nat n kanika n omg all her lil cousins mykool!!!and awww georja!! soo cute..didnt get ne fotoz! newayz umm did heaps of funfunffun family things!!

first played singstar! lol me fiona vs nat n charlotte, me n fiona won!..and then they won! lol ok we all suckedd! thenz dunno went round, eating nachos n dip n ummz *love astrid n georja - two lil girlz who are soooo cuttteeee!!* played foozeball LOLZ kanika is hopeless! nat scored goals..FOR OUR TEAM lolz thenzz umm oh yeh we forgot to bring charlottes prez ..*so embarrasin..dw sis giv on tues! n ummzzz k forgot what we did..so LUNCH!OMG NO WAIT ahah got our faces painted!

LMAO all of us by georjaz mum- kelly! charlotte got pretty blue..swirly stuff, nat got a rainbow n buuterfly, kanika had hearts ..*sighs* me n fiona got the spastic dalmation (fiona check out picz if u DARE) and a purple pink cat...astrid (lil cute) looked at us, screamed and ran awayyy!

yummmzz steak n potato salad n ..meatmeatmeat! chicken n sausages lol and kanikas vego potato n cheeessee! so cold outside in the backyard! after played soccer with troy...so scary! n mykool! aww the ball really hurtsss! they beat us lyk 7-2 then..it was lyk 9-2 ..lol who knows where the nxt goals were scored! newayyz yeh that was fun, fiona on the trampoline! soo 59r fat! georja cried so she;d get awf! lolz n then umm derno took heaps of pix? n yehz then went back in versed troy (lil boy lyk 8ish?) in singstar..so crap we suck! thats not fair he had all the rock songs! newayzz we beat him in one song i think? singstar 80z! take that..no wait we lost!

ummzz then awww so cute sang happy bday to charlotte lolz *speechhh! and signed her foto album and ate her cake LOLZ *yummzz it was so pretty colourfull butterfly with all sparkles! n opened her prezzies aw shes so lucky got money, gift cards, CHANEL sunnies and hair styler!!

k then after that kelly drove us home (me fiona kanika) and charlotte n nat went in glens car *hehehehehe and georjaz so cute..played eye spy! she nearly choked laughing at kanikaz name!

thenz went fionaz house..LMaO so funny we did that lipsinking thing to celine dionz-because u loved me!soo hilarious! n took about 12 fotoz of me (the cat) and fiona (the dalmation) doing..weird things.. and then of us..headless!lol n ate dinner there..n went home! ahaha im sucha slow blogger!..stop yelling at me everyone!

ahahaha shopped for sum1z *prezzie..n ended up buying stuff for myself! AHAHA *listens n sings to celine dion** newaayyzz oomgomgomgomggg sOcial coming up! ahah a cruise! but to mother n father..its in a hotel..and its overnight..LOLz

newaaayyzzz beat fiona in bowling againz SO *fiona promises to msg danny about the *afterdarkdanceparty* omgomgomg *songonnow-ihavenothing-whitneyhouston!* fionaLOVESdanny! he's so sexy, nearly as sexy as fiona;z best friend, kathleen!! *winkwink* n blah blah what did we do tuesday>? OMGOMG duh 6.06.06 ahaha me n fiona saw the omen..LOLZ *theresa..whos erman? AHAHAHA newayz not as good as expected BUT was very very scarrryy! ahaha fiona screamed lyk a billion times when its so obvious sumthing scarys gona happen!

wednesday: workworkwork trained maddie, she has mr noar TOO! *poor thing! but shes had him for 3 yrz! i'd die! newwaaayyyzzz ahaha fiona wears longjohns evryone! i love whoever put cameras on mobilez! fiona stupid fatass 59r TACKLED me in the maccas changeroom to delete it! umm yehz mmm cookiess! ahah jasmines so funny, i swear she lyk never shuts up...HAHAH threw a bag at her face..LMAOz

todayyz:: oooh hospitality..cooked fruit..date pudding thing with toffee sauce..mmmzzz!! ahaha burnt the sauce! i know what ur thinking, how can u burn sauce? well newayz me steph sarah n kylie worked togetherzz and our sauce was the thickest cos of the sh*tloads of cornflour we put in! and ms put evn more in after! oh wellz

went ct after school (ahah never go home nemore) me n fiona, omg central park, cutest guy looked at me..no wait looked into my EYES!ahah and smiled! i lyk could not get over it for about ten mins! newayz got prezzies and ahaha gP salesalesale! omg got *tsubi- yellow 3/4z never got ne tsubi ..thingz! n oneteaspoon skirt for $10!wth bargain! n pink military jacket and a zooyOrk tee..i need a new cupboard!